"Losing a whole year"

Another year passed. Did a lot, and did a lot of nothing at the same time. Never been big on resolutions but last year made one to start running regularly again, and stuck to it until I blew my knee out. This years is to eat healthier as I'm probably on my way to having a heart attack with the amount of cheeseburgers I take in. One cheeseburger per week, that's it. I said it last year at the Lark Tavern with the fam, "you gotta hate in 08, to shine in 09" and we did just that.

Cheers fam, hope everyone has a safe and happy New Year wherever you are whatever you do.

xofamfadexo

"What chya'll thought ya'll wasn't gone see me?"

"I'm the Osiris of this shit, CB is here foreva, motherfuckas!

I can't wait til they come out just to see who isn't gonna show face. These dudes better not blow it! This shit is at Northern Lights, this is going to be so interesting to see the crowd that comes out for this. I'll be there early posted up at the bar.

"I bomb atomically, Socrates philosophies and hypothesis."

"Last Christmas I gave you my heart"

"But the very next day you gave it away"...
Hope everyone had a good Holiday, I had the mellowest Christmas, spent half the day in a dive bar with my old man, then crushed two bottles of wine and did enough laundry to kill a small horse. I got a GPS, some flannel pajama pants, and some gift certificates. No complaints...so glad the holidays over, shits way to much. It's just a day off to me fam.


Is it wrong to deface the chalk board in the mens room?
oxBFFxo

"I don't want a lot for Christmas"

My family hasn't asked me what I want for christmas since I was 15. It's harder to shop for people as they get older, they have what they need and want, and it's twice as expensive. Im not a fan of holidays to begin with. I have no idea what it's rooted in but, I'd have to say that my family being as dysfunctional as it is might have something to do with it. I expect nothing and get a little something which I'm always grateful for, my rents are broker than me, and I'm broke. I usually get myself something after all's said and done but this year I've decided to spend that money on the seeds. I gave a skateboard to Toys for Tots and I'm going to get presents for my friends seeds. Making sure the seeds are happy is what makes my grinch like heart grow two times its size.
But if ya'll are feeling generous and want to get me something here's my miniscule list...

A french Bulldog, preferably a male. I've wanted one of these lil babes for a long time. I always stash a little bit of money aside for one and have the breeders contact through a friend, but something always comes up and I need to use the money.

A Canon G10 is next on my list. This is the crem dela crem when it comes to point and shoot photography. 15 megapixels, shoots in raw format, and takes amazing video quality. I will probably sell my Street Fighter II machine to buy this in the spring, unless one of you gives it to me as a gift. I'll even shoot your wedding for free when you get married!

Last but not least, the ugliest sweater ever created. I saw this in a picture at H & M while with Matt B. As you probably know I hate H & M with a passion, but fell in love with the most beautiful ugly sweater ever and have been throughout the northeast looking for it without luck. I've lurked the internet high and low only to find this pic. If you see this in your travels in an XL preferably or a Large, buy it and I'll flip ya extra cash for the troubles.

xoFAMxo

"A lack of color"

I'm over the snow already. I'm over shoveling and I'm over shitty driving conditions. I think we've had more snow in the last weekend than we have in the past 2 winters. Can we not have anymore snow, maybe just some cold? Also no more wind either, my knee can't take this shit, ya'll ever walk around with a cane in the snow, shit ain't hot. I need a drink, its been a couple days.
3 more days til Christmas, and I haven't even thought about shopping or gifts yet.


The snow has its moments, but it'll never be as pretty as me.

"You turn around and life's passed you by"

Its passed me by again...30 years of my life have passed by, I can't remember every last one of them but know that I've missed a couple of chances due to fear. We all have fears and all deal with them in different ways. I have a lot of things I regret doing and a lot more I regret not doing but, the past is exactly what it is...the past, I'll take the memories and make the best of them chapter by chapter in this book I call my life.
Could've, should've, and would've have been beating the shit out of me for sometime now, I'm kinda over hanging out with them. "Killing it while blowing it", and "Always winning, while constantly losing" are two characterizations that portray this Captains journey pretty well thus far.
This song/video hit the nail on the head...


"it's a mournful cry about growing old and life passing by in a flash, but at the same time it’s also about embracing change and letting go of a youth that is no longer yours. Yup, treasure the memories with all your heart but don’t hold on to them too tightly or they'll consume you. Accept the inevitable and grow old graciously." I'm just tryin' to breath fam, sometimes it's easier than others...

"Ice Ice Baby"

Whoot Whoot, whatchya'll know about "adult snow days?" That's right nothin', cause we made these a reality! Ice storm 08' in and around Albany had 170,000 homes and business' without power. The shop being one of em. Well an ill bunch decided to start fading at 10 a.m. which I'm definately about...The bar opened at 11 and dudes couldn't see straight by 1 p.m. So all in all I'd say it was a success. Burdface award goes to "Devon the dude" 10 hours straight with no food or break...I love watching people get cut off, Mosca came out at 7 and came in a close second with the 3 hour fade to retard status under the belt once again. Who's challenging the belt tonight?!!!!!


Dave got so drunk he thought he worked at bombers, dude was washing his own shot glasses...

"Oh won't you come out tonight"

I won't let it get me down...

30 is the new 21. Come celebrate Dave and I officially joining the AARP. Dave doesn't leave the house on his birthday so we're sharing the night.
Saturday 12/13 9p.m.
$1 cans
Madison Grille

All are invited. I think those who aren't know who they are.
Ya'll bitches ready to fade!

"Some will win, some will lose"

This all-star cast doesn't lose. From the first cinnamon roll to start the weekend out, to the last one Sunday evening upon leaving each other, we didn't lose. We won so hard that a house full of dudes had to challenge the title in the middle of the street and bottles were smashed, fist were thrown, and shit was talked, and of course we came out on top.




Thanks to everyone for drinking beers from the time we woke up til the time we passed out. Demal for the non-stop comedy, Armin for putting me up and the entire Boston crew for an epic weekend, winning is too graceful for all of us.

"I still can travel but my speed is changed"

Going to "title town" aka Boston for the weekend, only thing on my agenda is visiting

during the day on Staurday, and then everyone should also come out Saturday night for this

Don't be like Matt and blow it...

"The apple of my eye had a Snapple and some fries"

Yo fam on this day 29 years ago one of the most precious creatures was delivered by the sun, the moon, and the Earf. Happy Birthday to the beautiful creature known as Jeremy Smith! Also known as Gyro, Angel Hands, fam, babe, Pah, and that dude with all the shine. It's your day fam.

These 2 want in on the BFF festivities, and could use some of your shine pah...

xobabefamxo

"What would you think if I sang out of tune?"

The last 5 days have been nothing short of mythical. So good to see everyone home, and to have most of the BFF in one city for a weekend, talk about triptifam. JC thank you for the photos, Suz thank you for the homemade granola and congrats on the promotion! Damon we're going to win, Lynch fucking kills it! My beard looks like someone's pubic region from the 80's...

Boatwright, do you think I'm pretty?

"Visualizing the realism of life and actuality"

"What you need to do is be thankful for the life that you got. Stop lookin' at what you ain't got, and start bein' thankful for what you do got."


Trev, Mitch, and I woke up this morning and went down to the Plaza, stood in line for an hour an a half and got 19 meals from equinox and dropped them off to people who might not have a Thanksgiving otherwise. It feels good knowing your small contribution of time and effort can go so far for your local community and those less fortunate living within it. I look forward to volunteering or helping those who may not be able to help themselves during the holiday season, and whenever else possible during the regular year.
I'd like to thank Trev and Mitch for killing it, it was fun as much as it was helpful. Everyone else who volunteered today, book kid, and everyone at Equinox for making shit happen.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.
xoBFFxo

"Sunday Bloody Sunday"

Had an epicly "lazy Sunday" yesterday...slept until 1pm, met some babefamfaders for "suicide Sunday" on ye ol stool, bacon cheeseburgers, beers, cheese fries, Preston dancing, beers, ranch, painkillers, and more beers. Special thanks to J.C. for coming out, I love it when a lady eats a cheeseburger gets me so hyped, I don't know why.

I want it as bloody as you can make it.

Hickey...ya blew it!

"Brighter than sunshine"

This one goes out to my Lil man, Preston Noble Lucas. This beautiful lil creature has taken a better piece of this cynical heart. He is my nephew/godson of sorts not by blood, but all heart. I've seen more of Preston in his year and a half on Earth than I have my
nephew who's going on 4. Lil sweet comes in the shop and kicks it like no other, he's my favorite guest. This kid has smiles for miles and is the raddest lil human I've met he's killing it harder than most. Him and Mabel will make the cutest couple ever, I'll make it happen in a couple years.


Enjoi the snow fam, there's plenty more where that came from...

"I've got some things on my mind"

This song describes the mind state I've been in lately to a tee. These dudes are sick, and I can't wait to see them live. I guess one of the members is from Albany which is semi-rad. I don't look like the lead singer do I? Someone's said that and I ain't hearin' it. My old room mate also said I look like "the white Tyrese", that shit sucked. I'm workin the shop the next 3 days open to close, beers in the fridge...let's do this!

"No digity"

The pic is a silent conversation upon arriving to my bar stool partner before telling each other how pretty we are.

"Same time, same place"...There's nothing like getting the same txt everyday from the same amazing person who knows what you go through in your everyday of trying to forget about the past, live in the present, and not think too hard about the future. There are only a phew that know the struggle I live, I'm glad there babefamfaders.

xo Fam xo

"I found out long ago"

"It's a long way down the holiday road"...but a short ride to Brooklyn never hurt the soul. Good weekend with the babefam and the crew. This shit needs to happen more often than not.

Uhh...this is Nick, from your crew.

Ya'll skate? Massimo and C.Rapp tryin to get the Spitfire incentive.

Babetron?

Clickity clack 4,5,who!?!

Matt Damon

Deertick was sick! Hyped Bova came down, glad Suz came out, and big thanks to Nick Ace and Allie for traveling all the way out to BK to see the fam. Massimo, Bova, and Nick ya'll fade right! 712 Brooklyn!
babefam xo

"Today was a good day"

This kid fucking kills it.

Shit was rad 125,000 at Grand park showin' love for Obama, and in Arizona there were 34 people booing when his name was mentioned by second best and his sidekick, that type of ignorance is priceless. I'm welcoming Obama to the Babefamfade family...get burded fam!

"It was always burning"

"Since the worlds been turning"...

Holy fuck, could you imagine!?! Drink wine and take pain pills and you'll dream like this too!

"Raise ya swords"

I've never been a big fan of halloween. When I was a seed I was the same thing every year, a ninja. 5 straight years I was in all black dyed pajamas with a plastic sword, nunchuks, and plastic throwing stars, my parents thought I was retarded, I always aspired to be a real ninja...well you can see where it got me. I still get hyped on ninjas and shit to this day, this is one of my favorite ninjas...

I also don't like candy, never have never will, once in a while i'll enjoi a snickers or a zagnut. I handed candy out at the shop tonight tore through 12 bags all types of quick. Had to put this out to scare the seeds off when I ran out...

One of the other reasons I don't care for halloween is the chick factor, ya'll know what I speak of..."slutty _____" whatever you ladies wear its a reason to look like a whore and not be called out on it. Well ya stank ass shouldn't be wearin' what your wearin' any other day during the year so don't let halloween be any different. Ya fat stooty stankin' mothfucka' put ya damn toes away!

"Brooklyn is Burning"

In the past week and a half I've managed to leave my house 3 times. Once to get my knee drained and twice for physical therapy, this shit fuckin' blows. Been 10 days since I've had a drink or a cigarette. I don't wanna smoke anymore that shits to expensive, I'd thoroughly enjoy a glass of wine or a black and tan though. Anyway I've noticed that the hipsters are penetrating the outskirts of their local College campuses and coffee bars, as one stood out front of a local Stewarts in the suburbs. Please lose the haji scarf, homemade indian boots, and face covering sunglasses immediately. Hipsters are like Al Queda, only you can't kill or detain a hipster. We need to push them all to Brooklyn, call the city Brookschwitz, then cook em all. Genocide is the only way to get rid of these early 80's dickriders.

"We could be heroes"

So there's a place in PA. that serves the gnarliest burgers you'd ever see. They have 1,2,3,4,and 5 pounders but their lil slice of heaven is their 15 lb. cheeseburger, after toppings it comes out to be 20 lbs. of lovin. They also have a double stacked 50 lb. cheeseburger. (It's taller than a 4th grader) I always have and always will be a conosaur of cheeseburgers, anything to do with them eating them, cooking them, and where to get the best ones wherever you may be. I saw the picture of this guy and the burger he killed and questioned it, could I do it? I guess we'll find out next time I go to PA. It took this dude 4.5 hours to finish it and got $400 and 4 free T-shirts. Captain Awesome took in 10,000 calories in 1 sitting, his arteries love him. He is hero status in my book.

"Used to be a Sweet Boy"

Today is the birthday of Zilla. I wish I could be there when him and the other babes burn this city down tonight, Im sure shit will get really real. Eat a deep dish Pizza and drink a bud lime...it's your day fade it out.




Happy Birthday fam!

"Steady Rollin"

I had my surgery and it completely sucks. The pain is constant and thats with the gnarliest regiment of oxycodone and advil one individual can take. I can't sleep but an hour here or there, and not being able to move your leg or lay on your side is the worst. Try it you'll go crazy. I haven't smoked a cig. or drank a beer in 2 days, detox isn't as bad as it's made out to be. I do miss the famfade and my favorite barstool.

If anybody sees this guy, hug it out with him, and tell him I miss him.

"There Goes the Fear"

I don't understand why things work out the way they do, or why they even happen in the first place, it's all part of living and everyday is a new lesson. I've only been in love once and know it doesn't come around often. Will it come around again? Who knows, it took 22 years to find it and 6 to blow it. If there's one thing I've learned it's that it still feels like yesterday and I still hurt everyday. That's nobodies fault, what's done is done and everything happens for a reason. I feel like we all get to love at least once, and when you find the one that you never want to lose, they go...Everyone will remember their first love like it was their only love, you see them or hear about them and still get that tingle, it always lingers and never leaves you. It's hard to move on, but even harder to put yourself out there.
"Dating" is like a fucking job interview, you might as well type up your past and use it as a resume to hand to your potential "employer". You never know how the "interview" is going, if your going to get the "job", or if you get the "job" then get laid off. It sucks cause not many can meet my "salary".
So I try and put myself out there, only to realize I'm being played a fool. I'm so hyped on knowing that I was probably the butt of many a joke, and hopefully I've become an inside joke too. We all love them and all have them. I would never wish bad on anybody. There's no need too, karma takes care of everything. If anyone knows it's me, my karma's been kickin' me square in the face for over a year straight. It'll come around, one of these days...

"The Velvet Sun That Shines on Me and You"

Thanks to everyone who came out Saturday, it meant the world. To many best-worst dudes under one roof.







The nut was chanted, babefamfade and rayyych were screamed, $1 beers are awesome, and the night progressively got more amazing as we crawled into it.
Honorable mentions:
-Trev can elbow drop through anything, and anyone.
-Ali and Gerrard love to puke.
-Babe of Maine showed self-control
-DEZ and DOOMFIST KILLED IT!!!!
-Curt Still can't dance.
-Al and Nate can dance really well.
-Demal is the funniest dude on the planet.

And the BURDFACE award goes too...

Taste, you killed it. I've been in those same shoes before. Nothin but shine fam, your still a 10 in this pic babe.